Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Crisis...

...mostly the mid-life type I think. I've made several MAJOR changes and/or decisions that just have to be the forties finally weighing on my mind. Or maybe it's simply the hormones talking. :D Whatever the cause or outcome, I have only myself to blame (or thank?). I've taken on more responsibility at work, opted to take three classes instead of two, and managed to isolate myself from pretty much all but one or two friends. This will either totally backfire or light a fire under my ass to at least make something positive come of all the changes. So far it's been wallowing, feeling sorry for myself, or shutting out the whole world. Up next? Maybe just finding positive things on which to focus.

Dreams

For a very long time now I've talked about all the big plans I have for my site and my store. And I've yet to show any real progress. I'm great with the big ideas and grand schemes; not so much on the follow through. Also, there is that flaw in my genetic make-up, the ability to focus on one thing at a time until it is complete. Of course life outside of the business hasn't exactly been kind either.

I haven't given up on my dream, not even a little. I just know I need to be more realistic. And to depend solely on myself for now to accomplish my goals. Luna's Gathering is about to come full circle and become what I wanted it to be from day one; a store for Pagan greeting cards. I want to give the community a line of cards that, as I've told a few non-Pagan friends, are like the typical Hallmark cards but for the Pagan holidays and sentiments. Simple, clean illustrations and wonderful words to express our feelings instead of the usual fantasy art. Don't get me wrong though. I like the cards with the beautiful and detailed artwork. That's not quite my style (well, won't be once I've developed mine). And I know I could never compete with that. I'll find my niche and we can all offer something unique and magickal.

I've recently acquired several tools that will assist and a possible avenue for selling locally to test my marketability. It also gives me a deadline. This may be the motivator I need to finally reach for that long sought after dream.